Is playing it safe worth it?

We all have been bubbly cheerful kids until someone projected their fears onto us. The world is scary enough, than for us to expect and look for flaws and bad things to happen. And some people constantly try and convince us that the world is a bad dark place. It could be true. But what if it isn't? What if all the life I've spent inside my tall thick walls, I've kept everyone out and missed out on beautiful things life has to offer?

Why do we have so many fears anyway? Every worst-case scenario playing on repeat every time uncertainty arises. Who taught us to be so afraid when God keeps telling us..... "Do not fear."

The mind can be tamed, I've heard. So I'll keep an eye on it and hope for the best.

We think we're safe when we play by the rules. The rules were a guide though, not a ruthless dictator. One must always defy the rules that keep obstructing us from expanding our horizons, stunting our growth and disabling us from reaching out to others.

I mean, it's good to play it safe. It's good to want to be accepted by people. But taking risks can yield great returns. And you can't be accepted by everyone. There'll always be someone who disagrees with the life you choose.

But choose that life anyway. And tough it out when problems arise.
Because even if you don't take risks and listen to the advice of everyone around... Life will still be difficult and confusing sometimes. But you'll still overcome.

For the longest time, I've been closed.... People say I'm very reserved... I take a lot of time to open up... And even then, I'm so rigid in my personality.

It's tough opening up to people. It's tough being rejected. It's tough expressing your emotions and thoughts to others.
Because they may not understand.....but some may never understand.
And people may still hurt you somehow no matter how safe you play your cards.

I need to be open anyway. I need to express myself anyway.  I need to proclaim my truths no matter the consequences I might have to face. I need to choose what I know will make me happy even if I end up being wrong. I need to break my walls... Or else, I may always be here... Isolated from people who want the best for me, even if they don't always express themselves properly.

So here I am, this is me. I'm weird. I like and do things many find strange. I try too hard for things and don't want to give up on people. I hate drama but my life is always filled with it. But I'll still be here. I'll still try... Again and again... Even if doomed to fail cause I believe in the goodness in this broken world.

It's somewhere inside of every person... This goodness. I know I can find something to love and respect in everyone if I try hard enough. And I know someone will try hard enough to see all that in me.
Cause I'm just me, you know. I understand how much it hurts to be me... It hurts to be whoever you are sometimes.
But I need to open up my heart to people. I need to believe that they too can be good and mean no harm.... Even if they do cause some harm to me.
I can be strong. And I will be strong....to take in pain and let it change me into being a better person.

Have an open mind and be open to pain... Cause only if you're open to pain... You can fully receive love.

I will be me and you will be you. And we'll get along just fine.