On the bus as usual, I'm looking out of the window, lost in thought. I happen to notice the girl in front of me doing the same, smiling at a thought or something she noticed outside.
I was surprised. I was happy seeing her happy.
I am a sort of person that tends to keep a big list of what I want to happen in the future, what things I want in the future, what I want to be.
I think that's true for most of us, we expect good things, fully aware and cautious about the bad things.
But sometimes, that's how we forget to love the present for what it is.
There has been so many seasons and phases in my life, that if I'd just stopped to look around for a minute, I'd be much happier and grateful for what was happening, even though at the time it felt like everything was falling apart.
We need someone to smack us in the face and those are the times reality hits us.
I really wish I could've been more patient with myself and others. I really wish I could've gone back in time and done some stuff differently.
But these are just excuses and ways to escape the fact that the future depends on what I do here and now.
I used to hope and dream of being an adult as a child. I was desperate to taste freedom, to have an identity of my own, to make decisions on what I thought was right for me. But the truth is, freedom comes with responsibility. I still am on the search of who I am. And to make my own decisions comes with a lot of anxiety and over-thinking that I'd never imagined. It isn't all black and white, I'm almost never 100% sure on what is really right for me.
Growing up was great, though it came with a lot of unforeseen problems. Maybe everything I hope and dream about, is that way.
I should live in the moment and enjoy the moment while it lasts.
Reality is very different from fantasy. And the thrill of mystery dies off, once the secret is known.
Life is a complicated beautiful mess and there isn't a wrong way to live it if you're doing the best you can to be the best you can be.
In the coming days, weeks and months, I hope to expect good things to happen to me and the ones I love. I hope to take responsibility for the things that have happened in the past and work towards acceptance and improvement. And most importantly, I hope to live each moment to the fullest as I sit here, am grateful for who I am and all the things that are going right and do what I can do, this present moment.
I was surprised. I was happy seeing her happy.
I am a sort of person that tends to keep a big list of what I want to happen in the future, what things I want in the future, what I want to be.
I think that's true for most of us, we expect good things, fully aware and cautious about the bad things.
But sometimes, that's how we forget to love the present for what it is.
There has been so many seasons and phases in my life, that if I'd just stopped to look around for a minute, I'd be much happier and grateful for what was happening, even though at the time it felt like everything was falling apart.
We need someone to smack us in the face and those are the times reality hits us.
I really wish I could've been more patient with myself and others. I really wish I could've gone back in time and done some stuff differently.
But these are just excuses and ways to escape the fact that the future depends on what I do here and now.
I used to hope and dream of being an adult as a child. I was desperate to taste freedom, to have an identity of my own, to make decisions on what I thought was right for me. But the truth is, freedom comes with responsibility. I still am on the search of who I am. And to make my own decisions comes with a lot of anxiety and over-thinking that I'd never imagined. It isn't all black and white, I'm almost never 100% sure on what is really right for me.
Growing up was great, though it came with a lot of unforeseen problems. Maybe everything I hope and dream about, is that way.
I should live in the moment and enjoy the moment while it lasts.
Reality is very different from fantasy. And the thrill of mystery dies off, once the secret is known.
Life is a complicated beautiful mess and there isn't a wrong way to live it if you're doing the best you can to be the best you can be.
In the coming days, weeks and months, I hope to expect good things to happen to me and the ones I love. I hope to take responsibility for the things that have happened in the past and work towards acceptance and improvement. And most importantly, I hope to live each moment to the fullest as I sit here, am grateful for who I am and all the things that are going right and do what I can do, this present moment.
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