As it is "Thanksgiving day", I thought it would be reasonable to write a thanksgiving letter to all my friends.
Dear friend,
Thank you choosing me out of all the people in our over-filled classrooms. Thanks for all the jokes we shared throughout class hours as the only means to survive the wrath & boredom of our teachers. Thanks for sticking up for me when our teachers/professors threw me out of class or punished me for petty reasons. Thanks for telling me my drawings were good even though now when I look back, they were terrible.....it was through your motivation I kept drawing and eventually got better.
Thanks for pushing me towards meeting new people and trying out new things...I found out a lot about myself and the world. You extended my worldview, you introduced me to how beautiful the world could be. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and opinions with me. Thanks for all the support and encouragement you've given to help me be the best version of myself.
Of course, then things changed and we had to go our separate ways, but I'm still grateful of you for...hurting me, choosing others over me, belittling me, silencing me, blaming me for your short comings, making me feel unworthy, ignoring me... and leaving me.
Because I know you didn't necessarily mean to do it (or maybe you did). You were pressurized to do it. You were conditioned to be this way. You believed lies about me over me.
We all make stupid mistakes. We all have that embarrassing phase where nothing we did made sense to our future selves.
But I will always treasure you and whatever memories I still have of you. I will treasure those remaining memories that haven't faded yet.
My heart will never forget my gratefulness towards you, dear friend. Whether you were a good friend to me or a bad one, you helped me become better. And so, thank you.
I'm sorry to all the friends I've hurt. I'm sorry to all the friendships that I let drift away. I'm sorry to all the friends I needed to hurt to be "accepted" or "to prove myself to others". I'm sorry to all the friends I needed to let go of because we weren't the same people we were when we first began our friendship...I'm sorry things changed. I'm sorry I did.
I'm so sorry for the bad friend I may have been to you in the past.
I understand I can't fix most friendships. Some friendships are beyond repair.
But just know this.....I'm rooting for you to do well in life with happiness, grace and love no matter what kind of history we have.
From,
Pearl.
Dear friend,
Thank you choosing me out of all the people in our over-filled classrooms. Thanks for all the jokes we shared throughout class hours as the only means to survive the wrath & boredom of our teachers. Thanks for sticking up for me when our teachers/professors threw me out of class or punished me for petty reasons. Thanks for telling me my drawings were good even though now when I look back, they were terrible.....it was through your motivation I kept drawing and eventually got better.
Thanks for pushing me towards meeting new people and trying out new things...I found out a lot about myself and the world. You extended my worldview, you introduced me to how beautiful the world could be. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and opinions with me. Thanks for all the support and encouragement you've given to help me be the best version of myself.
Of course, then things changed and we had to go our separate ways, but I'm still grateful of you for...hurting me, choosing others over me, belittling me, silencing me, blaming me for your short comings, making me feel unworthy, ignoring me... and leaving me.
Because I know you didn't necessarily mean to do it (or maybe you did). You were pressurized to do it. You were conditioned to be this way. You believed lies about me over me.
We all make stupid mistakes. We all have that embarrassing phase where nothing we did made sense to our future selves.
But I will always treasure you and whatever memories I still have of you. I will treasure those remaining memories that haven't faded yet.
My heart will never forget my gratefulness towards you, dear friend. Whether you were a good friend to me or a bad one, you helped me become better. And so, thank you.
I'm sorry to all the friends I've hurt. I'm sorry to all the friendships that I let drift away. I'm sorry to all the friends I needed to hurt to be "accepted" or "to prove myself to others". I'm sorry to all the friends I needed to let go of because we weren't the same people we were when we first began our friendship...I'm sorry things changed. I'm sorry I did.
I'm so sorry for the bad friend I may have been to you in the past.
I understand I can't fix most friendships. Some friendships are beyond repair.
But just know this.....I'm rooting for you to do well in life with happiness, grace and love no matter what kind of history we have.
From,
Pearl.
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